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Until Dopamine Finds a New Prey: Notes from the Edge of 40

In five days, I turn forty. The number sits there like an uninvited guest who has already made itself comfortable on the sofa, feet up, asking for tea. I have spent the last few weeks collecting the scraps of thought that keep floating up  half jokes, half grief, half defiance  and stringing them into something...

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Seventeen Years Between Two Open Doors

I still remember the weight of that night in Lahore the way some people remember the first time they realized the world could turn on them without warning. I was in my second year of bachelor’s studies, living in a girls’ hostel, young enough to believe that ordinary plans stayed ordinary. My friend and I...

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A Survival Guide with Decent Eyeliner

I never thought I’d be the person who drags herself out of bed every morning, pops a couple of painkillers, and spends a solid ten minutes mentally negotiating with the day ahead. For years I listened to Amma do exactly that. Poor thing would say it almost every morning while she was still in service:...